=)

..cos you keep singing this to me, it’s stuck in my head =)

To the person who came to me when I was feeling lost, who is always there for me during my times of need, who I can share my everyday silly stories with and whose company never fails to make me feel like even when the world around me may be falling apart, it will all be okay….

On your birthday, my gratitude goes out to your mother, who gave birth to you. For without her, I wouldn’t have found a friend for life =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Bebot! =)

and i couldn’t ask for more.

I think I have written too many emo/sad/low entries for the past few ones, without doing justice to the great days I’ve had lately and great people I have around me. So let me do it in pictures.

First, there was Raya. It was awesome, my 2nd and 3rd day was spent in Holiday Inn, Malacca… family, moolah, spa and fun! It was quite a retreat =)

I managed a pout. Rarity!

And then there was the all-girls Slumber Party at Grand Millenium hotel. The food, the company, the music - i think ive found my soulmates =)

The girls =)

Room service. Thank you.

Candid shot by Jo =)

Oh not forgetting the charity event Liana & I participated in, Pink Ribbon at KLCC. We plan to be volunteers next year! =)

The photo for our donation =)

Fadzil supported the campaign too!

Camwhoring with Liana, my date of the day!

And then there was the celebration of my favourite twins! Jonet’s Farewell BBQ & Asmaa’s Birthday Surprise =)

Some of the girls at the BBQ!

Asmaa' blowing her surprise birthday cake.

The food Asmaa made was so good, we emptied our plates in the first half hour!

The celebrated duo =)

The supposed cool pool pose tak jadi! Haha...

Everyone was so hyper by the end of the night, on full happy tummies! Yum ;D

And finally, Liana’s birthday celebration (Li shares the same birth date with the twins btw) =) … love you, doll! Eventful night it was.

Liana filling up petrol when our car ran out of gas! Haha...

Being the camwhores we are, we took a pic while Liana fixes the tragedy..

Happy 23rd, Liana! *hugs*

Love you, babes! =) *group hug*

xoxo.

Crazy Girls.

..sometimes, crazy’s alright =’)

You’re losing me, baby.

Keep up this pace and your ego.
Keep up this way and your pride.

… because you’re losing me, baby.

Just when I thought I will fall in love again, I lost you and you lost it.

I will miss you dearly… but then again, this is nothing new.

It’s about time, I admit that I am strongest on my own.

Room Eleven – Bitch.

xoxo.

Stuck.

“Are you stuck?“, the invigilator stopped by my table in the examination hall and asked me. Me staring into blank space in the middle of an exam must have triggered this brilliant question.

I gave him a nod. He smiled back.

And little did he know how deep that question was for me. I am stuck. Period. Feeling like a broken DVD player playing the movie of my life, the one where you have to struggle to take out then clean with one of those DVD player cleaners. You know, the one where you take an empty special CD, apply a cleaning liquid on it and make it clean your player by clicking, PLAY.

Yes, I’m like that.

Before you start making conclusions or assumptions, it’s not that I hate my life. No, infact, I love it. But I’ve been going through moments where I feel a little bit suffocated, confused, frustrated and stuck. (Stop counting how many times I’m using this word, you’re stuck with my stucks ;p).

I have this tendency to sit with friends and start talking about the future and life in general. I’ve been told by close friends that whenever I’m with them, we tend to have a reflective session. About love, life and everything. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or not, but I hope it is. It means I make you think for you, right? If I don’t and I’m only making you feel worse, please stay away from me then, haha.. ;D

So, back to me being stuck. I’ve been going through moments self reflecting so frequently lately, to the point of overdoing it, that I’m starting to overanalyse everything all over again. (notice how this sentece goes around the bush like an irritating rewind?)

BIG questions like,
- What do I really want to do with my life?
- Where do I see myself 5 years from now?
- Which career path should I take?
…are starting to bug me all over again and what annoys me is that I can’t seem to have a clear answer for it.

At my age, I should have a clear answer. This is not right.

I am scared.
What do I do when I feel stuck like this?

Let me ponder.
Let me set up plan A, B, C & even D.

I’m on a mission to leave behind stuck.
Cos dear stuck, you suck.

I’m atleast writing this phase down for once.. Progress!!
=)

p/s: I think my university’s convocation and seeing some of my friends graduating got me thinking and thinking and thinking. Congratulations to all, btw!

xoxo.

TLL (Tough Life Lessons) #1

#1. I am an adult now and I have to face the consequences of my actions/procrastinations/irresponsibilities. No matter how hard they are.

#2. He forgot my birthday til a week later, he did not wish me for Eid and his response to me being depressed is, “don’t”. Obvious conclusion: he no longer loves me and I must keep in mind that this is also related to TLL #1, it’s a consequence of my own action and I have no one to blame but myself.

#3. Engineering is NOT a walk in the park and now I have to run cos I have been merely crawling, no, skipping throughout.

#4. I am alone in this.

xoxo.

Eid Mubarak!

It’s Raya season again! =)
I’m still embracing it, therefore, won’t be putting up pics of it just yet..

Here’s wishing you Selamat Hari Raya Aidlifitri and Maaf Zahir Batin =)
I’m leaving you with a fave Raya song of mine!

Til next time =)

Cucu Nenek.

My grandma spoils me.

I’m always her little grand daughter she wants to buy/get/choose stuff for. Though she scolds me sometimes and tell me that I should act my age, I know she finds it comforting that I still rely on her for somethings.

Thank you, Nenek =)

Yesterday, she told me she wants to get me pretty lingerie and today, she woke me up earlier than usual, asked me to get ready then she picked me up at about 10 a.m., drove to Subang Parade and spent a few hours at Triumph and LaSenza picking things I like. It was just me and my grandma, I had fun =)

My grandma on the road.

La Senza on display.

I asked her, “what’s the occasion?” Her answer was, “just because“.

“Pasal nenek sayang cucu perempuan nenek lah“, she would say and give me that look that indicates she thinks I ask stupid questions, hahaha =D

A candid in the lift as we're about to exit.

Jehan pun sayang, nenek =) ..that goes without saying.

*hugs*

Little happiness.

Holidays are here!  =) …and though I have a bunch of things to study and due right after, I’m thinking, “Who doesn’t?”.

SO, I plan to just go with the flow… Like everything else in my life right now, little bits of happiness =)

Oh, yesterday Syawal (my youngest brother, 5+ year old), requested for Baskin Robbins and surprisingly, Sushi King for supper. It’s cute, cos I was thinking like, “When the heck did my baby bro go Japanese?“

Since this is his first time fasting and so far, he had not skipped even a single day (that’s over 20 days of no-food for a food loving kid!) .. therefore, mom and dad pretty much agrees to get him anything he wants to eat this month.

Syawal & Syahar @ Sushi King.

I love you, little brat.

=)

Do/did you know…

...that had it not been for you two, I don't think I could go through my insane days with my sanity intact? =) *hugs*

 

...that though we ordered and ate so much at TGIF that day, I was already full since the first appetizer arrived?

 

...that I was one of the girls who played firecrackers at dawn in college and annoyed the hell out of some of you? ;p

 

...that you're my favourite little person every weekend? =)

 

...that I read more movie reviews now because I don't like to NOT like what I watch?

 

...that I enjoy this Mamak the most? =)

 

...that I am so relieved when the result of your CT scan was normal, because I am so afraid of losing you now that I need you more than ever..? =')

… and now you do.

=)